live life to the fullest ;

2010-02-07T21:38:00.002+08:00

oh oh, here i am, since takde pape nak buat laaa kaaaaan,
blog skejap je pun jadi laaaaaa.
okaaaaaaay sufffffiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan ! <3
can someone tell me where can i get the cheapest itouch?
i really wanna buy itt, tapi tatawu whr to get one yang cheap cheap punye ,
yelaaa, ini orang ckp, savings ;
btw, saturday ni, going sentosa, yes uhh !
looking forward to it, LUGE(:
okk, anything i'll update laaa,
my blog, lagu pun haven't letak, gambar-gambar .
malas siaaaaaa!

okay bye .

2009-12-28T10:13:00.002+08:00

new skin, new posts coming up.
but for now, i wanna sleep first, tadi ton ngan kawan .
okk, update later, selamat pagi! (:

2009-09-16T00:37:00.002+08:00

can someone please help me, choose which one to buy?
cause i don't know which one to buy till now !
help me pick, the one with the most vote, i'll buy !
thanks ehh(:

2009-08-13T19:52:00.000+08:00

keep holding on, don't let go suffian(:

2009-08-12T23:18:00.001+08:00

skipped school, met that dumbdumb, orang nga tidur bestbest, dier gy call pulak .
haha! tapy tkpe, gy bedok, slacked at 406, the time was like 8+ am?! lol. pegy coffee shop cause
someone sakit perot, COMPLAIN ! haha, sorry kambing[: then to grandlink, pool . then my friends came over,
watched movie, then they went off, haha ;

then met syafiee, go wathed soccer, singapore vs china ! what a boring match ! LOL !
takpe uhh, free apeeeeee. haha, sape taknak? then headed home. tomorrow, school starts at 730! );
meeting dumbdumb again tmr, wwwwweeeeeeeeeee ~ i swear uhh, you look cute when you smile[:

ps, lucky i'm in love with my best friend[:
goodnight .

2009-08-11T00:26:00.003+08:00

happy 44th birthday singapore[:

family left for kampong on saturday morning.
left me and brother at home, hah. then, house no food, only got nasi lemak?
waliao! so, terpakse masak, nuggets, fries, egg, maggi, blaaaaa.
friends came over, smokesmoke, watched movie, table tennis kat carpark, laughed aloot, ALOOOT !
hahah, was like abt 12 plus pon kite bisingbising kat carparak macam orang gile sia ! :D:D
&& was fun uhh, all like dumbdumbs, highlight of the moment was, when i was tired with playing table tennis.
i became THE INCREDIBLE HULK, out of the sudden, koyak kan baju !
LOL . so the tak perlu . alkfgdlhfakfskfhfhsh ! [:
then, all went upstairs, played fifa 09. mandimandimandi, watched videos pat youtube,
then turun bawah, watched kill bill, scary movie.
haha! then after that, SUME TDO MCM BABI ! :D:D

sunday, went for soccer match at Xinmin Sec .
won 2-1, winning goal ! huhu ^^
fuck, someone stole my $35 . pala buto pey anak haram ! geram je, hehh .
then home, &&&& family like stupid came home all of a sudden, padahal, cakap coming back on monday
night sia, ape lagy, sprayed the whole house with perfume ! cause the whole house
bau rokok oi gengs, haha .

today, woke up at 4 pm ! haha, cause didnt sleep since sunday morning, haha .
then gy online jap, watched videos, pat youtube,
then, gy maen bola pat 125 sane .
go makan CHICKEN CHOP ! sedaaaapp ;
now, I NEED TO FINISH MY RESEARCH WHICH I HAVENT DO !
& IT IS FCUKING DUE TOMORROW ! WTF, LOOKS LIKE I'M NOT GONNA SLEEP UHH NIE !
WALIAO ! takpetakpe, be hardworking, it pays okaye, hah, mcm faham ;

so, goodnight orangsorangs/dumbdumbs/ belos/
blaablaablaaaa ,
bye .

2009-07-15T16:47:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7hQEJIaciRM&feature=related

this is fucking sick maaaann !
go watch , not for those faint hearted !
goodluck [:

2009-07-14T09:47:00.000+08:00

okay, hello.
new skin, bye (:

2009-07-06T19:17:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNK6h1dfy2o&feature=related

watch this you all .
i watched it & cried !
haha! kental [:
enjoy .

2009-06-23T16:53:00.000+08:00

yes uhh! 28 June 2009,
season starts .
anyone interested in joining Northwest Spartans Fc,
find me on msn .
GO SPARTANS !
((:

2009-06-15T03:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FATHERS DAY (:

well, i'm all alone at home, listening to songs;
daydreaming, smoking, makan .
family left for melacca this morning, decided not to go cause its gonna be super boring ;
kalau gy kl, then i follow ! :D:D
anw, dul & rizuan came over for a movie marathon,
watched Monsters Vs Aliens, Waterboy & X Men Origins .
they left around 3 am just now .

super bored sia now , nothing to do .
nvm, 2 more days to go till my family sampai rumah .
i miss dad, mum, MY SISTER ! )):
so gonna hug her when they reach home .
friggin boredd seyy, pfft .

so yeah; goodnight (:

2009-06-03T01:31:00.000+08:00

okay, everyone MUST WATCH PB 4 ;
seriously , A.Mahone was such an ass for backstabbing,
&kyra, yeah, the video at the end seriously damndamn sad sia!
haha! like watch that video 5 times sia,
cried twice ;
WHAT A GOOD SHOW !

this friday, can't wait, anyone nak join?
tell me luh , takecare peeps ((:

2009-05-24T00:58:00.000+08:00

haha! today was super-duper fun sia !
here goes ;

met zepa & wan belo kat tampines, then walked to tamp inter,
took the train from tamp to pasir ris, then to bugis? stakat nak dapat seat nye pasal -.-''
hmm, then reached bugis around 5 +, makan kat tong seng,
WANTON NOODLLEEEEE! YUMYUM! :D:D

then, walked to marina square, plan nak jumpe Iskandar Drummer,
plan meet kat MAC at 6, then we reach around 605?
sat there, smokesmokesmoke, 655 he's still not there? okay takpe,
then walk to esplanade, waste time, then at 7plus called him,
he said he was waiting for us at MAC, tapi kat DALAM?!?! waliaoweyyy ~
tkpe, then took bus to cineleisure, met him there,
slack kat luar TAKA, drinkdrink, I HATE THE BUIH SIA ! pfft .
from there, 8 plus gy far east, masuk, then tak sampai 10 minutes, kluar !
LOL ; how pathetic sia !
HAHA! takpetakpe, kluar, smoke jap, ternampak "bapak zepa", korng tawu jelaa eh ;

Then to clarke quay or boat quay, WHATEVER ! hah .
then lepak kat this bridge, OMG SIA ! gerek kepe the percussion nye performance?
hahah, &&& not forgetting the girls! POWEERRR BEB! ((:
haha, then 10plus, gy survey the clubs there,
zepa, iskandar, wan belo, 6june beb! CLUBBING BAYBEH ! WOOOHHOOOOO!
retrobar, here we come ; mau standby duit uhh sia! ;
takpe, CONFIRM HAPPENING BEB THAT DAY! $150 at least taw !
hahah, okayokay, can't wait, zepa, CHIX BEB !.
single mah! lol ; sane sini, sume datang beb!
LOL ;

beb, nari gerek uhh . serious uhh ! happening gile.
this coming sat, wild wild wet tau !
takmo lupe eh, kkay .
nak go rest, besok ade match at 1pm .
goodnight my friends((:

psst.. i miss you ; hope you're doing great,
since september yeah? & yes, its you,
i have to admit.
PLEASE PLEASE go study hard okay, i'm always here ,
find me when you really need someone to talk to okay?
your presence still lingers around me;
imissyou girl, takecare, goodnight ((:

2009-05-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS!

1: meryl - hahah! she was the one who told me to include her inside here,
or else, she'll be upset?! LOL . okay, she's been with us for like a year plus now,
got to know her also from khairah; heh.
okay, she's irritating! i mean like damn irritating AT TIMES OKAY! .
not always eh, has been helping me alooot tooo.
so yeah, thats her; SORRY ((:

2: zam - the irritating friend of mine, loooovvveeesss to make my blood boil when in school,
but at times, he's kinda friendly tho, he's also my new found guitarist,
has a great interest in guitars too, loves his slow rock songs,
blaablaablaa . STUPID BOY((:

3: helmy - this guy here, have been with me for 3 years, so call my lepak partner.
he knows me too well, thankyou(:

4: shah - well, just know him this year, cause he's in the same class as me,
been sharing every problems with me, thanks bro(:

5: dul (center) - he kinda funny at times, but when he's angry,
trust me, you won't wanna mess with him(:

6: effendy - aha, the ABANG NS! well, been in the same boat with him before,
he's one of a kind, when he's super in the mood, he'll be
super irritating, THE MOST IRRITATING((:

7: ridwan - HAHA! the idiot of the pack, he loves to crack jokes whenever i'm down,
one of a kind, & also loves to fool around, like monkey & a music lover,
my drinking partner (:

8: faiz - ((: , i miss him aloooot, he was the one, who assist me in everything!
helped me to move on, gave me great advice at times, everything he says, i would listen!
&&& he has always been there for me when i'm in need, even though he's sick, tired,
he won't fail to make me smile, a trustworthy guyfriend to have &
he's super fun to hang around with, maybe irritating at times tooo,
i'm happy to have you in my life beb, thanks for evtg & i really wanna thank you for helping me with every single problems i've been through, & thanks for being there for me faiz,
i really don't want this friendship to end yeah ;
((:

9: uan salim - THE LEPAK CAPTAIN! sorry uan(:
nak katekan eh, si dekni dekni ni, easy to fall sick, loves to make jokes tooo,
kinda miss him aloot too, cause he was there for me the day before raye when my rs ended, loves his dikir life, he's a easy going guy, understanding, thanks uan((:

10: zepa - MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE!
he's a retard, joker, not forgetting a music freak & he adores guitar!
has a great interest in music, understanding too.
he's a great guy to be with, glad to find someone like you bro.
overall, he has been a great friend of mine, i appreciate evtg you've done for me,
thanks((:

this all may sound odd, but seriously,
i miss all my friends, LIKE CRAZYYY HEEELLLL AAALLLOOOOT;
meet up soon guys, please do so;
cause without you guys, i'm not gonna be able to make it through
& i won't be able to stand strong((:

goodnight peeps, takecare ;
thanks everyone((:

2009-04-27T00:55:00.000+08:00

I WANT OREO CHEESECAKE !
can can can can?! (:

today's match was excellent; 4-0;
scored one . 9 goals in 9 matches; WHEEEE ~
next stop. Prestige Marines - Ex-Nationals !
next sunday ; 1pm kick-off . SPRINGFIELD SEC .

yesterday's match was messed-up;
but had fun okay! thanks adib & thanks guys for coming;

till here then; UGH, school tmr at 8AM?!
wtf?
goodnight peeps((:

2009-04-25T05:48:00.000+08:00

TOMORROW'S MATCH ;

GK ; SHAFIEE

RB ; RIZUAN CB ; VINCENT CB ; ?? LB ; FAIZ

RM ; KHALID CM ; ?? CM ; DUL LM ; AMIRUL ( OSCAR )

ST ; ZEPA/BODEN ST ; RIDWAN .

GOODLUCK SPARTANS ; A WIN IS A MUST GUYS (:
see you all tomorrow yeah (:
goodnight ;

2009-04-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

GUYS; THIS SATURDAY;
25th APRIL 2009
3PM ; MANGO FIELD ;
PLEASE BE THERE ;
GET READY SPARTANS (:

2009-04-22T22:28:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY FRIENDLY ; TBC .
SHORTLISTED PLAYERS .
THOSE WHO CAN'T MAKE IT, INFORM ME;
THANKS(:

jenid ;
arif ali ;
vincent ;
rezal ;
fiqri ;
effendy ;
rizuan ;
faiz ;
dul ;
huzaiffah ;
khalid ;
yan hao ;
ridwan ;
suffian ;
faizal ;
din ;
shahrulnizam ;
shafiee ;

vs Temasek Poly okay guys ;
see you all soon;
goodnight(:

2009-04-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

dum di dum di dum;
school's damn fun BUT tiring sia!
i don't even understand anything about my javascript;
nevermind, can always learn how by asking my teacher(:
anw, yesterday's match, we lost 3-1.
haiyoyo!
the weather was scorching hot, cannot tahan sia!
nevermind, managed to score one though, HAHA!
okayokay; I WANNA WORK AGAIN(:
fun fun fun ;
byebye;
goodnight peeps(:

2009-04-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

ALAHAI! BESOK SKOLA!
diediedie .
takpe, will try to make it a habit by coming to school early
everyday.

currently - havent slept for like 26 hours?
hahah; ton, ton, ton ;
now must sleep early, go to bed early .
no more ton-ing on weekdays.
only on weekends baru boleh .

dear friends, will upload the pics on that sakura outing soon yeah(:
&baby; hope you're doing great yeah ;
cause imissyou;
goodnight(:

2009-03-28T06:45:00.001+08:00

Elly's 18th birthday party ;
IT WAS A BANG!
thanks guys & girls .
(:

2009-03-15T16:21:00.000+08:00

hahah; takde kerje, so nak blog je uhh.
firstly, MAN U LOST TO LIVERPOOL BY 4 GOALS !
whatttttdddaaaafooookkk!
punye luh rubbish, but nevermind.
i bet man u can still lift the trophy at the end of the season(:

today's match postponed due to waterlogged pitch ;
supposed to play at bedok north secondary.
but luckily postponed, that field is totally fcuked up.
like padang pasir ! hahah, serious!
stupid school! (:

today woke up at 330, and mum was like super bingit cause i slept the whole day?
punye luh lame! padahal i was super tired, yesterday had street soccer competition.
the most lousiest comp i ever participated in! stupid ref, stupid opponents.
takpe luh eh, dapat maen free okay whaaattt ;
later zepa coming over cause he needs to teach my siblings guitar,
GURU! hahah. Uan, sooner or later, nanti kite kalau lepak malam,
tkkn boring, you know, i know! HAHAH!

i don't believe in forever ;
no relationships can last till what we wanted.
single = FUN & FREEDOM .
luckily i'm not into one .
proud to be free . ((:

okayluh; thats all.
takecare ;

2009-02-15T21:20:00.000+08:00

valentines day? haha; totally tak perlu uhh.
well, i'm doing great. friends, thankyou. appreciate all your laughters and jokes.
match today, won 4-2; 2 goals to my tally.
taknak talk much luh, takecare to alll [:

2009-01-19T00:22:00.000+08:00

eh hello;
first of all, if you read this post eh,
i miss you, indeed, ALOOOT(:
i won't go away luh kkay, i'll be there,
through thick and thin, i'll be there for you.
i'll be right here waiting.
yes khairah izzah, i will.
OKAY?
:D

well, nowadays, i didnt get enough rest, having school tmr,
and now, i need a ipod charger, hp charger.
if no hp kan, later at school dont know whrs the class at,
dah susah, er. guess i have to take the charger tmr morning .
and, i don't know i can't wake up like 7am?
use to waking up in the afternoon i guess?
havent buy uniform, pe tshirt? haiyoyo! leceh nye.
hope can make it through school tmr, my legs are super weak, match,
soccer. mati mati, tentu mati! haha!
we'll see tmr, how i'll survive in school with fatigue. pfft.

eh yea uhh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUR DIYANA BINTE MOHAMMAD SAPRI(:
behave and study hard kay? make ibu and ayah proud.
i love you aloot, sorry kalau tak belikan present -.-

kaylaa, i gtg, takecare friends.
goodnight(:

2009-01-12T02:08:00.000+08:00

fuiyoo fuiyoo!
manchester united 3 : chelsea fc 0
yes uhh! effendy , chelsea kental sia !
lol , hope you're doing great in camp,
we miss you .
lol .
kay daa, byebye (:

2009-01-08T02:15:00.000+08:00

happy 2009 people !
well, just change my skin,
like after 3 months tak blog,
here i am again.
will update soon yeah. (:

2008-11-08T02:22:00.000+08:00

i won't lose a friend like you;
yeah you , Khirah Izzah Binte Shahril (:

thanks for being there for me ;
Muhammad Faiz Bin Sani .
Muhammad Ridwan Bin Jumiat.
Muhammad Rizuan Bin Ahmad Salimi.
Syed Huzaiffah Bin Syed Hadi.
Effendy Bin Parman.
Meryl Cheng Si Hui.
Mohammad Sapri Bin Abdul Rahmin.
Sitiaidahton Binte Osman.

i really treasure all you guys as a friend, thanks for being there for me
when i'm in need . thank you people.
i really do appreciate what you all have done for me.
i really love you mum and dad.
thanks for having faith in me.
THANK YOU (:

2008-10-30T08:56:00.001+08:00

this is totally tempting okay?
adipure addiction of mine (:

2008-10-29T04:51:00.000+08:00

tired.
worked from saturday 10pm till monday 8pm.
mampos uhh! heh.
lazy nak update.
& Playstation 3, here i come!
yeah!

takecare.

2008-10-23T16:33:00.000+08:00

happy 15th birthday to you;
Khairah Izzah Binte Shahril. (:
you're a year older huh?
hope to see you around, i don't wanna lose you forever.
but by the way how things are going, we're drifting further apart.
i miss those times together, those laughter, your hugs?
kay, i should stop, heh.
you takecare then. :D

2008-10-17T21:48:00.001+08:00

yea, i miss you khairah izzah bte shahril. ):

heh. &now, i hate myself for every single thing thats happening to me.

mum, dad, brother. all adding up to my problems,

please, i have enough problems that even myself can't handle & yet, you're adding to it.

every minute that passes by, all i hope for is that you'll msg me.

i'll be right here waiting. one day. one day.

you all takecare ;

FUCK THIS WORLD ;

lets all die.

bye.

2008-10-13T01:50:00.001+08:00

i miss you;
takecare.

2008-10-11T19:38:00.000+08:00

i still don't get it ibu, you still won't talk to me?
pft. idk why luh eh. dad, you're the same.
haiy, everyone just keep turning their back on me.
seriously, i can't help it anymore. &sorry faiz, tadi aku maki kau.
harap kau fahamfaham okay? itu friendship band aku treasure selama-lamanye. heh.
fcuk luh okay, can someone just stop these tears.
imyimyimyimyimyimyimyimyimy!
to think that i can make it on my own?
i just can't. 72 hours; SLEEPLESS NIGHTS! ):
anw, thanks for pooh bear, he's my companion for now.

you takecare. i love you still.
will always do.
it will never end.
sorry.

sorry i took your posts,
but i just can't help it.
been reading it for the past two hours.
tears, hurt, pain.
i'm sorry.
iny.

&& on the other hand ; baby ill try my best to push myself okay .
ill promise ill work hard .
& as for you , dont you worry okay sayang .
tho youre gonna be away ; you know youre always here with me .
please , dont think tooo much okay suffian .
cause you know you'd always be my baby(: i wont ever let go ; & i would never give up okay .
we're gonna make it happen . trust ; thats all we need .
i dont want us to fight anymore okay (: cause it'll bring us no where .
tho its proven that couples fight = a good thing .
i dont wna see you sad anymore ; it hurts me as much as you're being hurt ); im sorry if i ever did in the past .
& please , you once said to me ' dont let others affect you ' ; so same goes to you .
cause you know i love you & only you kan .
so dont you ever be sad and worried of losing me , cause you wont alright :D if its true you wanna make it till the end ; then we will okay .
i love you , takecare.

im sorry ive neglected you .
im sorry ive never appreciated your love for me .
someone will get hurt , but i dun want you to be the one .
sorry , iloveyou & i'll always do . can we start a new ?
im sorry if i've caused you lots of heartbreaks but now i realise that you've been there for me , you're the right one ; the one that love me just the way i do .
but please change some of your ways (: thanks for always being there for me , & i d k how to repay you .
i promise i'll be there for you and i'll love you till the end of time okay sayang .

HELLO SUFFIAN ! :D
iloveyou always okay .
please takecare of yourself .
& dont miss me too much ;
but i will miss you .

i hope you take good care of yourself during NS okay (:
i'd always be waiting taw ;
mwaaaaahhhh !

-khairah baby :p

2008-10-11T06:09:00.000+08:00

i'm super down. sad. i have no one to talk to anymore.
mum; i'm sorry. i know its useless. saying sorry won't solve anythin, i know.
but what did was just to prevent you from scolding Ashraf.
nevermind, i'll take the blame. but that doesn't mean you won't talk to me
when i wanna share my problems with you. i don't have have anyone to turn to
right now, NO ONE! i seriously can't depend on my friends.
i tried to talk to you, but you just walked away, tried to explain things, but
you don't wanna listen. & now, i'm left with nowhere to go. and Zepa, Faiz, Ridwan.
thanks for being there for me when i cried just now (:
cause i just need to shed that tears, i just need to. its hard to explain.
no one will ever understand. ibu, its okay if you don't wanna hear my problems,
its fine with me okay? cause i'll die one day anyway. thanks for everything.
now dad; you're a guy, i thought you'd understand how a guy feels when
they're in pain, but instead, you scolded me &
hit me with your so call expensive belt sesuka hati when i got home just now!.
you wanna bring back all my pasts? all my unwanted pasts?! FINE! i'll stay away from both of you! just don't mention that i didn't change, i tried my very best.
i did try. but seems like everything i do, will fail eventually.
so, no point trying anymore. & ibu; thanks eh SUMPAH-ING! i don't wanna mention it here, cause i know, it will happen! sooner or later.
whatever that comes out from a mothers' mouth, will sure happen.
so, hope you'll be smiling when that day comes! the worse part is,
i tried lying down on your shoulder, but you pushed my head away & i don't know till now, after you pushed my head away, you slapped me & start to nag again.
FFFFUUUUCCCCCKKK YYYYOOOOOUUUU!
WTF DID I DO?!! huh?! i needed that someone to talk to, cry on.
but you just can't be bothered! all my pasts, takkan luh ibu tak maafkan?!
i know i sinned alot, towards you, ayah, tok & nenek! but i did seek forgiveness
from you guys?! did i?! pft. its so unfair luh. i thought my problems were slowly fading away, by the way how thing s are going right now, its just adding up!
fuck this world luh okay. how bullshit can my problems be, HELLO!
i'm only 18! & yet, i think i'm facing more problems that 18 year olds should face!
i totally give up, there's nothing more i can do to make all of you appreciate me
for what i've done all this while. i seriously give up. i hope yawl will be happy
when i'm dead someday. okay? (:
WTF! can someone just be there for me? i need you, yes,YOU ; KHAIRAH!
& i know, you won't show up. cause you too, have your own problems.
i just don't wanna suffer anymore luh for god sake! i've gone through enough!
&to the anonymous whatever shit yang tagged, fuck you luh! tak puas hati, jumpe aku & talk to me face to face. its my blog, ade hal, cari aku uhh. !@%*
anyway, i just need someone to talk to right now, not been sleeping for two days straight cause i just can't sleep, FULL 48 hours, havent yet sleep for a minute!
and yet, i'm having more problems each & every day.
thats why, i'd rather die than suffer! khairah, now you get it?
thats what i've been trying to tell you, but i'm afraid.
I MISS YOU TO THE CORE & NO ONE WILL EVER HUG ME THE WAY LIKE YOU USE TO!
but you don't seem to even care. i'm sorry.

to mum & dad;
if one day i'm away, please, you know whats my wish.
i'm too stressed up. too down to think.
too tired to even walk. i just don't feel like doing anything.
cause all i need is YOUR smile, & you know who i'm referring to.
so yeah, i just can't continue anymore.

all my tears will never end;
cause i'll still love you khairah;
no matter what.

2008-10-09T18:15:00.000+08:00

omfg!

i can't play soccer;
eat oily foods;
do excessive running;
exercise;
& my ns PES status is still pending.
had my heart scan at alexandra hospital this morning.
got to find out that theres a small hole in my heart.
so call a leakage, WTF! i think doctors are stupid,
he told me that if i do happen to play soccer or whatever terms of exercise,
it can cause my heart to malfunction.
and in case if it does, it may result in death. BLABLABLABLA!
who cares anyway, i know i'm dying, might as well just go with the flow.
hole in heart, hole in heart. heh.
god; you can have me.
thank you god. (:

take me away when you want to.
goodbye.

2008-10-08T18:20:00.000+08:00

well, sorry ibu. i didn't expect things to turn out to be this way.
i was just covering up for ashraf because i don't want to get a beating from both of you. i'm sorry, so, in the end, i got the beating from dad & mum came up to me in the early morning and slapped me cause she thought that i was the one who left
that cig box in ashraf's bag. nevermind, then dad hit me with the stupid belt.
& ashraf, please make sure that you don't do this again.
you're lucky that i'm covering up for you. pagipagi aje ibu dah panggil abang tak guna, tak show responsibility kat adik beradik. sakit hati okay.
i'll do anything for you, but like i said, change please.
takpe kay ashraf, i'm okay. just that ibu & ayah takot if you'll end up becoming like me. itu je. behave & mix around with the right group of friends. abang dah give up daa, i tried to change, and you know what ibu says this morning that hurts me the most? "abang anak derhaka! &tak guna pagi raya kau mintak maaf kat aku, because i know you won't be a good influence to your siblings and to evryone around you,
& you won't ever berubah suffian. "
i did try; ibu.
padahal all i did was stakat cover up.
&you won't know what i'm going through right now.

omg, i need you okay Khairah, like seriously.
but i know, you won't be there.
i give up. ):

2008-10-07T16:39:00.000+08:00

first of all, HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY MD ASHRAF BIN MD SAPRI (:

you're a year older okay? not a year younger,
and as you get older, you have to become more matured.
and you have to say thanks to ME cause because of you,
ibu scolded me, for so called putting that ciggy in your bag. heh.
but, you too bad the H.S.A guy caught you with a cig box.
nevermind, i love you, i have to sacrifice at times.
i hope you won't repeat the same mistake again yea?
hope you don't. as a brother, i don't want you to fail in your studies.
you can come to me when you have your own problems, i promise that i'll help.
whatever i can help with, i will. as long as we both still staying under one roof.
just concentrate on your studies first, make ibu & ayah proud!
and insyallah nenek, she's looking from up above.
remember whats her wish? she wanna see her cucu excel in their studies.
so don't you ever for once give up. ayah will be there,
to help in your studies, cause i know i can't help.
you're smart, but don't FOR ONCE misuse your smartness.
seriously, stop bullying nur, instead, love her.
cause she's your sister after all. she's looking up to us as brothers.
& abang nak mintak maff kalau abang made you bleed at times when we fight,
i do fell hurt & did cry okay when i made you cry. tak sampai hati i wanna ever do
that to you, my own brother. i'm sorry ashraf. hope you forgive me.
&please, don't like sikitsikit nak marah ayah.
i know, you're getting older, that's why tkbleh kene sikit.
trust me, i've gone through more than you,
try to control your temper, ayah and ibu kalau pergi, takkan kembali.
so, while they're still here, make full use of this chance to prove to them that you can do it. i know, i use to be a bad example towards you. but now, i'm changing,
i'm trying to, & so should you. don't give up that easily,
try your best in everything you do, with penuh semangat (:
its every parents' wish to see their children excel in their life, score great marks
in their exams, and succeed in everything they do.
so, as i say, pleaseplease change some of your ways, at times,
when you marah ayah, i feel like crying, cause you're becoming just like me last time. now i realise that looking at you marah ayah, i do feeel hurt.
i can't blame you i know, cause i've been doing that for the past few years.
be patient ashraf, it pays, seriously. losing your temper, won't solve anything.
he's our father after all, without him, we can't be here, in this world breathing.
stop it ashraf, its not that i wanna scold you or something, ayah is just trying his best to make us happy, you see, he's been working his socks off
just to support us. did you ever think that kalau boleh pun ayah tknk kerje,
i can see that he's tired. but he's left with no choice.
as long as he's able to work, he will. for the happiness of our family.
see for yourself, ibu pun dah tak larat lagi nak kerje, but dah terpakse.
she have to work to support all of us three & tok.
nenek dah tkde ashraf, and tok pun tk lame kat dunia, to be exact,
no one can live forever, you may not know when allah s.w.t gonna take you away.
while you're still alive, have this opportunity to make everyone around you proud.
ibu, ayah, tok, me, nur, will be there around you always.
i made alot of mistakes in the past, &i dont wanna repeat it.
please kay ashraf, you're a big boy now. grow up and study hard.
cause i don't want you to make ibu and ayah sad,
cause they've gone through alot.
if you love them &nenek, please change.
for the sake of your future.
remember that we'll always be there.

anw again, HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY (:

&for you; KHAIRAH.
i've been trying my very best,to forget.
but i just can't. cause nowadays, i've been thinking alllooot about you.
your exam results, i feel bad, now i know, its too late to regret.
i should have been more understanding in the past, &should've ask you to
study more instead of wasting time on the phone, on the comp.
i'm sorry, but i know, its useless. sorry can't change anything.
but really, i'm still gonna be there when you need someone to talk to,
i don't get it why is it so hard for you to text me sometimes?
khairah, i'm really sorry for everything thats happening right now.
i'm really sorry. but all you can do right now is just pray. thats the best thing you can do when everything fails. pray & seek forgiveness to HIM.
insyallah your prayers will happen one day? no one knows.
i do miss you, & i know you feel the same way too. those times we had. (:
i'm not far away, ask yourself, have i ever distant myself from you?
rain or shine, i WILL be there for you, i promise.
just dial my number or msg me, i'll be there.
please, don't run away. cause after all, we both know our weaknesses.
& don't you ever worry, i've already forgive you for everything; every single thing
you did, already forgiven. (:
please. at least have a little faith in yourself baby.
remember? ; don't let others affect you.
i understand how you feel at times when your family tunggang-terbalik.
your brother, but you have no choice, just bear with it. dad, that's why i say,
you have to be more patient & prove them wrong,
trust me, if you prove them wrong, they'll be left scratching their heads &
mouth wide open till lalat masuk mulut. BBZZZZTTT!
wondering is that really you or your clone? sorry if lame. HAH.
i'll be there to assist you as long as i'm alive. PWWOOMISH! (:
i love you, & i don't want you to fail your exams & be more patient.
do please take good care of yourself.

& i'm still loving you.

2008-10-06T03:33:00.001+08:00

well, here goes everything;
first, mum& dad, sorry for everything i've done towards both of you,
i've neglected the family, i know, i've sinned aloot!
&now, i'm sorry, i really realise what i've done.
ayah; suffian betolbetol nak mintak maaf, atas segala dosa-dosa suffian buat kat ayah.
i treated you like some garbage aloot of times, i didn't appreciate your love for me.
i've hurt you alot of times, and your eye, its gonna leave a scar even though you've
gone through surgery. i'm sorry. i'm really sorry ayah. for these past few months,
i've neglected you, ibu, tok, nenek. and nenek, i really miss you.
you were the one, yang jage suffian dari kecik, and now, you're not here.
anymore. seriously, faiz, uan, fendy, thanks for everything, i really appreciate every single thing
you did for me. your time, everything. &sorry kalau aku ader terkasar bahase kat korg.
aku nak mintak maaf.
ibu; suffian betolbetol nak mintak maaf kau ibu jugak, i've been lying to you all this while.
i know, you tried your best to change me, but i just don't bother to change
i just don't. but now, i really wanna change. &i'm sorry ibu.
iloveyou, yes i do! i need you ibu. its awkward to ask for your help at times,
but now, i need you. i just don't have anyone to turn to nowadays.
i just can't depend on my friends. they too need time alone. &you're busy
working, you need to support the family and stuffs. your words on pagi raya
are still on my mind ibu, i wanna apologize to ayah, but i'm too afraid,
too many things i did that hurt him. i'm just a burden to this family, &now,
god, please take me away. i really don't have anything to live for.
i've lost khairah, the one i loved with my life,
i really loved you alot & now you're turning your back on me.
your love, i won't ever forget, your smile, your hugs & kisses, your pampered mood.
the first time i went out with you & fell. (:
the first kiss. (:
the first hug. (:
the first time you said i love you. (:
the first call i made, " WOMANS SHOE " remember? . (:
the first fight. (:
the first time our eyes met. (:
the first time you kissed my hand. (:
the first time you ate in front of me. (:
the first time we hold hands. (:
i miss those times, now, really, i don't understand, you were my inspiration,
i thought i could count on you, but i was wrong. you left me with nothing.
i'll always love you, i swear! trust me. i'll come back. when you're ready.
i'll never forget you, my heart will be always open for you to come back, i'll wait for that day.
i'll wait for you. & i mean it, my promises, don't forget them just yet.
i haven't say my last goodbye to you khairah.
&now, i forgive you still, i always had. THANK YOU . i miss you alot khairah.
i'm sorry for evrything. i'm really am. you were the one i gave my everything.
i'll be waiting for your msg, your call, our meet-up!.

finally ibu & ayah, suffian betolbetol nak berubah, i really wanna turn over a new leaf.
its a promise to everyone close to me, i will. change my ways.
i'm gonna try my best in evrything, i would never ever give up that easily.
trust me. i'm not gonna be like last time okay?

selamat hari raya; maaf zahir dan batin.

2008-10-04T00:18:00.000+08:00

omg, lack of sleep!
havent like sleep since the first day of raya.
just can't sleep. heh. WORK!
confirm penat giler! till 5 am oi. (:
have to drag myslef to take the train to redhill at 7am plus?!
then to CMPB, had my medical checkup. theres like 9 stations!
then the fcuking computer test waste time uhh,
after each test, suppose to have a short break, heck care uhh!
the questions are all damn lame uh i swear!
well, GOT PES "D"! wow, PATHETIC! , was expecting A, got D?
cause there's something wrong with my heart.
on 9 oct, need to go alexandra hospital at 845am for my heart scan.
i didn't know that there's actually something wrong with my heart? HAHA!
then after my scan, god knows what i'm gonna get next? hope i'll be posted to the police academy! (:

lots have happen lately. just can't type it here.
raya have been veryvery bored! i don't know why but its totally boring to me.
no mood to celebrate.
all keep coming back. if you happen to read this post,
imysm okay, like hell aloot luh! omg! i know you don't bother to know.
&i heard about your exams results. i'm sorry
i made you neglect your studies all this while, i feel super fucked up right now
i don't know what to do to help. its just stupidity uhh!
haiy, nevermind, imy. & sorry.
remember? have a little faith in yourself thing? i know you have.
your friends are all around you, if you don't need me,
your friends are still around. they'll be there for you.
i know, i'll still be there. but i don't know.
i'm crying now for god knows why. i can't go on this way.
but whatever it is. i'll still love you anyway.
go do your exams well and you can have fun later (:
we'll be meeting soon. looking forward to that day.
takecare love.
ily.

sorry.

: sebenarnya aku, amat menyayangimu;
ingin kita bahagia, sepanjang masa;
namun rasa cemburu, tak dapatku elakkan;
bagaimana untukku, hadapi segalanya;
walau bukan tanda ku benci, tapi sayang yang ku beri;
inginku melihat senyumanmu sepanjang hari..

sayang seribu kali sayang, cintaku padamu takkan berbelah bagi;
segala rintian akan ku hadapi, untuk menjadi milikmu;
tidurlah sayangku, pejamkan matamu;
mimpikanla belaianku, agarke menyanyikan lagu khas untukmu..

2008-10-01T04:52:00.000+08:00

selamat hari raya to all muslims!
maaf zahir dan batin,
kalau ader terkasar bahase,
tertinggikan suare,
harap-harap semua maafkan okay?
okay then

you, imysm!

2008-09-29T15:06:00.000+08:00

i miss you;
yes i do.
takecare baby.
its okay if you won't answer my calls,
reply to my msgs,
cause i know, you're having your exams now;
do it well, and then you can have fun okay? (:
but i can say it here. i love you; always will.
its gonna last till the end.
&no matter how deep you're hurting me,
i'll still love you baby, trust me.
i'd still wait for your call each day & night;
even though i know, that you won't call me.
i'll wait; my baby.
&i'm just a phonecall away.

ps; i love you. (:

2008-09-25T17:09:00.000+08:00

i've failed, i know that this is gonna happen.

how am i gonna live through everyday feeling stupid?

neglected, lied to, well, i just can't accept the fact.

i've been looking forward to your EOY cause i was hoping that we could

meet up like we use to. i was really looking forward.

but now, everything's changed. &theres no way i'm gonna get over you baby,

trust me. i'm crying my lungs out right now, in front of my sister.

i really don't know, are promises really meant to be broken?

i didn't know that, you told my friends evtg, i think i was a damn retard

to believe every single word that you told them that night.

i was looking forward to celebrate hari raya with you.

i did every single thing i could to make you stay.

tried callng you, but you wont pick up, tried msging you, but you wont reply.

i know, even though you couldnt reply my msges,

i msg you, just to tell you how much i love you.

wished you goodnight, wait. do you know how much it hurts inside when someone

promised you like aloot & gave you hope, in the end,

all that's left is just hatred?! whats you motive?

your promises = lies?

i tried pulling myself through every day w/o you around,

keep thinking to myself that you'll come back.

keep holding on a little bit of faith.

but i never ever thought that YOU, the one i loved, the one i sacrificed for,

i hold on to. could do this to me?

its just a disbelief. i cant believe whats happening.

seriously. what have i ever do wrong to be in this state?

i never lied to you, never played with your feelings,

oh i get it, maybe its because of me loving you too much.

i've never regret loving you. i swear i don't. cause i thought we

were just made for each other. in your letters,

you wrote soo much, your msges! you tell me..

think back all the promises you've made..

if you want to tell me that all those was just a lie,

then its fine with me. cause i'm never ever gonna believe you again.

i've sacrifice aloot just to make you happy,

try to cheer you up when you're sad.

talked to you when you're in need.

but, you just threw them away.

i know, i have nothing, NOTHING!

but whats the point of making those promises?

its useless, your words were soo sweet, that i believed every single promise.

i have never changed a thing, i kept on loving you and even treated you like my family.

i loved you more than anyone. i've never loved someone like this before.

its too painful to let go. if i could just meet you for the last time, i swear khairah.

its gonna be a memorable day. but i know, you won't wanna meet me.

i know. my friends told me to let go, but i just can't.

cause theres comething in me saying not to.

cause like i said, i thought for once we were meant to be.

& do you mean your sorry? cause if you do, things won't turn out to be this way.

we planned everything, but..

i can't go on, sorry love.

but i'm still holding on to you.

i can't let go. &i won't. if it takes me like a year to get you back, i'm willing to.

i don't care whats gonna ever happen. even if my life is at stake, i'm gonna do evtg i can to get

you to come back to me. cause in my heart. i still know that you're the one for me.

&i'm gonna love you till my last breath, i will.

don't you worry. my promises, just don't forget them yet.

cause i'm gonna fulfill evtg that i promised you.

i will, be there for you;

like i always do,

i will, love you like i use to;

i will, be with you till i die;

i will, wait for you.

well, below is what you wrote the day before my birthday on my friendster.

sorry.

( 05/07/08 )

Sayang;

tmr's your birthday and i cant meet you );
im really sorry okay .
reallyreally .
i hope you'll have fun celebrating ,
with idk who . your family and all the people tere ?
so yeah , i love you & i wont let go too okay (:
I PWOMISHHH .
please do takecare & remeber the above ,
dont you ever dare to forget about me .
cause if you do , ill make sure you wont (:
haha . get it ? get it ?
okay im lame .
shut up kyra .
AKU LOVE SUFFIAN HINGGA KE AKHIR MASA .
FAHAM ?!?!??!?! (:

whats that suppose to mean?

i just dont understand.

2008-09-18T19:17:00.000+08:00

hello;
imysm! its been two days.
i know, you need space, well, i gave you all the space that you always wanted.
but please please remember that i still love you like i use to, no matter what.
i trust you okay? no one will ever replace me.
&that you won't be with another except me.
i believe every single word you told me. (:
no matter how much pain you caused me,
i'll always forgive you, i don't care how painful it is.
i just want you to be happy.
just like when you're with me.
we made promises, &i know you mean those.
really, just do your exams well, study hard. i want you to.
so that everything would return to normal.
don't be too stressed up, i'm not dead yet, i'm still here.
if you need me, i'm just a phonecall away baby.
if you need someone to turn to when things turn bad,
just call/msg me. i'll be there. like always.
i won't run away, neither will i mute.
you're my everyhing. i want this to last, but for now, just study hard okay? your
final year exams are just around the corner, i know.
try your best, have a little faith in yourself remember?
&if you miss me, and you dont wanna call me, just read my letters.
hug bearbear. hope it helps.
i promise you baby, i won't stop loving you till my last breath.
i promise. if you're reading this, don't cry, every word here,
came out sincerely from my heart. okay?
&its just for you! ONLY YOU baby.
baby, i love you. &i will never let you go.
&i know you'll come back.
faiz knows what i'm going through right now. (:
i'm just a phonecall away.
i do miss you, ALOOT!
takecare sygku.

ps; I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! (:

2008-09-17T14:43:00.000+08:00

firstly, to nenek kesayanganku.
thanks for everything, you were the one,
took care of me since i was small, raised me up.
and now, you leave just like that.
i know, we as humans, don't live in this world forever right?
i promise nenek, i'll make you proud, thanks to you,
suffian sudah at least khatam AL-QURAN. (:
thank you nenek. all i can think of is that you're safe up there.
insyallah. may allah forgive all your sins.
lastly, nenek, kalau ade terkasar bahasa, tinggikan suara, harap nenek maafkan
suffian. i'm sorry nenek. i kissed your forehead. that was the last time i did.
watching you go, hurts me aloot!
goodbye nenek; Al-Fatihah.
ily.

2008-09-16T15:00:00.000+08:00

&baby, i'm still loving you, like i use to.
losing my grandmother is harsh enough, &now, i can't bear to lose you.
only god knows what i'm going through right now.
i know, you'll come back. (:
so, i'll just have to wait. for you. i'll wait.
as promised. you can have you time & space you wanted.
but please, don't forget that you're still mine.
okay?

khairah; my love for you will never end. trust me.
i'll still be there when you're in need.
ps, ILOVEYOU! (:

2008-09-10T14:36:00.000+08:00

PRISON BREAK SEASON 4 OUT! haha. (:

Click on the links to watch;

Episode 1 - SCYLLA ; http://tv-video.net/swf/prison/prison401.swf

Episode 2 - BREAKING AND ENTERING ; http://tv-video.net/swf/prison/prison402.swf

Episode 3 - SHUT DOWN ; http://tv-video.net/swf/prison/prison403.swf

More Of Prison Break Coming Up.

Takecare. (:

2008-09-08T11:39:00.000+08:00

I'm bored. so, found this. heh.

1. Taken or single?
- Taken.

2. Do you like it ?
- Yea, i do.

3. Have you ever had your heart broken?
- Obviously. heh.

4. Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
- NO!

5. Are you missing someone right now?
- Yea.

6. Have you talked about marriage with someone?
- Yea. Always (:

7. Do you want children?
- Of Course .

8. If yes, how many?
- 2 At least. HAHA.

9. Would you consider adoption?
- NO!

10. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
- Nopes.

11. Do you want someone you can't have?
- Nopes.

12. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
- Yea, sometimes.

13. Do you get butterflies when your around your crushes?
- Totally , YES! (:

14. Do any of your ex's still have feelings for you?
- I Don't Think So

15. Have you slept at a Boyfriend/Girlfriend's house?
- Yes.

16. Do you love someone?
- Yea, more than anyone. (:

17. Do they know?
- I Don't Think So. Its Hard To Explain.

18. Was your last kiss with someone you liked?
- (:

19. What's on your mind right now?
- AALLLLOOOOOTTTTT!

20.Have you ever cook for your boy/girlfriend?
- In The Future I Suppose.

done.
omg, i'm bored to death.

baby, i'm still loving you; imysm!

2008-09-04T12:10:00.000+08:00

I know, you'll come back to me,
i'll wait for you baby,
as long as you want me to,
i'll wait. till you dont want me to.
i'll give you all the time and space that you need baby.
please tell me if you think that its really over aites.
i'll respect ur decision. &dont worry, i won't run away.
cause my love for you will never end.
i love you so much baby!
takecare when i'm not around.
for the past 7months, i never ever regret being with you.
seriously, the times we had, now will be just memories.
if i could hug you now, i'll cry my lungs out. deep inside, i'm hurt.
really hurt. i miss you so much now.
i know you still love me like you use to, but you're trying to be strong.
i know baby, you can't hide. i treated you like my own blood.
but now, i'm in a huge loss. but still, i'll be there when you neeed someone to talk to.
if you're sad, angry, pissed, i'm gonna be there when you need someone.
cause like i told you before, i won't ever run away.
baby, i won't stop loving you till its over. i wont say goodbye till you want me to.
we promised to be together till the end. well, promises are not always kept.
i loved you more than anyone in my family.
anyone that's ever been with me.
cause i knew you're the one. hope i'm not mistaken.
baby, if you're reading this. please go read all ur past posts. read it carefully.
i want you to think back what we've done for the past 7months?
&maybe you'll understand what i'm going through now.
sorry i didnt gave you the space.
now, i'm willing to. i'll pray for your return baby.
please, stop the suffering, come back to me and get back on track sayangku.
takecare always aites. i love you baby.
mwaaah!

ps: i'm just a phonecall away. (:

2008-08-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

omg, i miss my baby! (:
cause you made my day.
i'm damn happy.
haha! thats all.
takecare. anw, HAPPY TEACHERS DAY.
takecare.

2008-08-25T23:12:00.001+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO! (:
looking forward to this sunday's match-up at broadrick secondary.
those playing;
GK: Alip.
RB: Uan Salim. CB: Vincent. CB: Faizal. LB: Effendy
RM: Yan Hao. CM: Feroz. CM: Kajie/Din. LM: Faiz.
ST: Suffian/Dharvin. ST: Wan Belo.
haha! semangat seyy aku.
takepetakpe. wish me luck. (:

2008-08-24T11:34:00.000+08:00

my love ; KHAIRAH IZZZAH (:
IMY!
:D

well, nothing much happen lately, guess all i've been
doing is just like faiz said, " habiskan beras " (:
i need a proper job, proper pay, can someone please
recommend me any job that pays me $5.50/hour?
haha! very demanding kan? lol.
was suppose to have my match today, due to the rain yesterday,
match was postpone, due to water-logged pitch.
heh. nevermind, i'll make my plans later uhh, palingpaling pun kalau
tkde pape nak buat, SOCCER jugak mau jalan. HAHA!
never-ending.
okay then, i'll update at night.
bye-bye-bye.

2008-08-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

BABY ; IMYSM!

2008-08-11T13:10:00.000+08:00

WHATTHEFOOK!
this boots, boots, HAIYOYOYO!
okay, gotta work, once enough moneeyyyy,
HERE I COME NIKE MECURIAL VAPOUR IV.
i don't care, don't care.
diedie must get these boots!
haha!
(:

2008-08-10T02:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE (:

today; damndamn tired uh! all because of the soccer i had yesterday.
woke up in the morning & found out that my left rib was damn swollen.
lucky my mum was home, so, asked her to urut uh.
haha! slept late cause helmi wanted to have a sleep-over.
in the end, i left him alone atching resident evil while i'm sleeping like ....
lol! takpe, after all, it was his idea.

woke up at 10am, then slept back till 2pm &that was when mum memekak!
padahal public holidays! beh bangun lambat pun nak bising -,-'
heh, nevermind, then, all except maid go msia.
stayed home & watched national day parade.
&baby, imysm, its like i talked to you for like less than 10 times tday;
compared to other days, so yea, i'm not blaming you oke?
you have your malay dance performance,
hope you did good.

at night, went out & met baby at bedok inter, planned to take 17 to
pasir ris cause she had to meet mum at some chalet,
but in the end, she took the train.
sayang, I FEEL BAD TAU!
managed to send her to the mrt control station,
head back home, faiz & uan salim came to my place till 12:30.
& now, i'm all alone with baby asleep, all offline.
haha! what a life! (:

sweetdreams baby (:
goodnight to all!

2008-08-09T01:34:00.000+08:00

oi! today was great!
soccer at simpang, was absolutely magnificent.
even though kicked a guy! haha! muay-thai skejap uh.
&baby, sorry for not being there for you today.
my NS, 2 weeks je kay tahan!
i know you can do it.
& now, imysm! actually, tremendously!
i kept looking at your pics, thats the most i can do.
well, hope we'll be meeting tmr!
okay then, goodnight people.
takecare. (:

2008-08-07T15:52:00.000+08:00

khairah sombong!
where's my hug & kisses as promised?
heh. (:

2008-08-07T01:25:00.000+08:00

well, i guess we both know that we're drifting away each day.
your kisses, morning calls, hugs, smile are all greatly missed!
you have dance, then i'm gonna start work soon, idk baby,
how i'm gna be there for you.
i just don't want US to end,
iloveyou, yes its true.
theres no one else can replace you,
i promise baby. i'm sorry for everything.
idwna fyt anymore, all those shits, fget abt it, ur pasts, all forgotten,
i know thinking bout it makes me angry, but i have to be strong i know.
well, everyone's not perfect, everyone has their own pasts.
good or bad, well, its the past.
nothing we do can change the outcome.
really baby, losing you, will be a big blow, our promises, lets be strong & make sure it happens oke?
i know, there are lots of obstacles in life.
but, together, i assure you, we'll be able to pull through.
no matter what, i'd be by you always.
i won't ever leave you, knowing that you're sad just kills me inside.
i know at times i can't be there for you, cause i just can't.
i'm sorry, i may have throw my tempers on you, to be honest,
i can't control them, if i'm angry, syg, in advance,
i'm sorry. i'm unable to help it.
iloveyou with all my heart sayangku!
takecare my love. (:

2008-08-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating okay?
nothing much happen lately.
first of all, sorry for SIFC Coach, dad passed away
then today's match; SIFC(5)Real Ale Madrid Fc(2)
HAT-TRICK (:

then head to bugis, makan TWO rounds, haha!
then walkwalkwalk to dont know where & ended up in marina bay,
got to catch the fireworks in time with FENDY & VINCENT.
i'm totally shagged! haiya!

&wait, baby, IMISSYOUSOMUCH!
sorry for not msging you, calling you.
i was with my friends okay?
hope you understand.

till here.
takecare.

2008-07-29T00:37:00.000+08:00

hellohello! (:
well, nothing much happened.
i think i'm gonna start my diet-body-building-routine again!
i really wanna train my physique, ns, soccer. HAHA.
i need it. can someone be my personal trainer? (:

&one more thing, the new season kicks-off this saturday & vincent;
CAN YOU PLEASE MAKE UP YOUR MIND? pft.
TOP-SCORER trophy, HERE I COME AGAIN! yay!
hope i'd play regularly again.
i'll do everything i can to help.
wish me luck aites. :D

takecare.

2008-07-28T13:37:00.000+08:00

aku rindu sama khairah!!

today; sleepsleepsleepsleep -,-''
then head out for soccer training.
then balek rumah.
lazy to update.
takecare.
byebye.

2008-07-26T00:05:00.000+08:00

hellohellohello (:
today sucked! wanted to play soccer, in the end RAINRAIN! hmph.
nevermind, theres still tomorrow? haha.
lets pray it doesn't rain okay!

TODAY ;
406, & faiz, kesian eh kau? 4 round lepak nari. haha! uan punce luh!
HAHA.
planned to go jamming with zepa, imran, wan belo, but imran can't make it cause he's
jamming with mercenarian. -,-''
haiyah, i miss playing the drums!
Most of all, IMY BABY! (:

takecare.

2008-07-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

POOH&ME (:
i can't help it, IMY!
baby, thanks for the shoe, i'm sorry if i use up your $85.
seriously, i'm sorry. anyway, thanks tau! :D

today; peninsula, 406, played soccer at the cage,
& its damndamn tiring, almost fainted. heh.
tmr, bola lagik! haiyoyo!
till here then.

BYEBYE.

2008-07-24T00:32:00.000+08:00

baby, imissyou! guess you're sleeping? (:
well, tday was okay, wait, life's so bored when i'm not schooling, well, i miss my ite classmates, fahmie! dan! ilyas! dah lama tak dgr pasal korang?! ):
life has to move on, next, NS! aaaahhh! takecare all my friends, jage diri baikbaik iye? (:
faiz, uan, ingat eh, HOOCH! lol.

er, went out, met baby, kembangan, tak fair! you're taller than me today! haha.
then went back, went out again to 406, met faiz, uan dumbdumb, meryl & belo.
OMG, when can they stop playing daidi?! is it so addictive? god, help them!
i'm really ashame of myself, i really am ( faiz, you know, i know ). LOL!
thats for today okay? (:

I NEED THE NIKE MECURIAL VAPOUR IV!!!!!!

daddaaaaa :D

2008-07-22T14:58:00.001+08:00

HELLO SUFFIAN ! :D
iloveyou always okay .
please takecare of yourself .
& dont miss me too much ;
but i will miss you .

i hope you take good care of yourself during NS okay (:
i'd always be waiting taw ;

mwaaaaahhhh !

-khairah baby :p

2008-07-21T12:34:00.000+08:00

well, I swear these boots makes me go crazy! (:
today was okay, asked vincent how much was the street soccer shoes for these, he told me $60, got there, it was actually $85, wth! so, need to save up a little bit more, go makan at food junction & sorry baby for the mood change just now, i wanted those! thats all.
nevermind, gonna grab those bfore friday, weeee! :D
i need to work! find money! cashless, pft.
from city hall, met faiz, belo & aidil kacang, slackslackslack, till 7plus, headed home. &wow weee, mum cooked black pepper crab! the moment i reached home, she was like, "suffian! makan nie kasi abis, as if i'm some kinda food garbage" LOL! (:
okay then people. takecare.
imy sayang. (:

2008-07-20T20:08:00.000+08:00

hello people! changed my skin. well, theres kinda virus in my f***-ing comp. causes all my pichas in my hp to be deleted! wtf! baby, sorry. managed to upload one, aaahhhh! dammit ):
nights.

2008-06-07T17:57:00.000+08:00

baby off to thailand , ohmygosh ! only god knows how much i'm missing her , & i'm off to msia for holiday tomorrow with my family . haiy , goodbye friends (:
see yawl on thursday , 12june , CHAMPIONS OF THE CAGE '08 , heh .
1day gone ;
5more to go !
&wan belo , we're in the same boat huh huh ? haha ! aku nak macam faham .
baby , i know you'll come back . (:
i'll wait for your return oke ?
i'll love you you you you like i always do no matter what .
takecare all .
goodbye.

2008-05-23T07:41:00.000+08:00

MANCHESTER UNITED ARE THE BEST IN EUROPE & ENGLAND ! ((:

2008-05-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

hello people ! nothing much to say , can't wait for tomorrow's champions league final ;
MANCHESTER UNITED VS CHELSEA ...
good luck okay man utd ! (:
macam faham uh. heh .
okay , i'm so bored right now , i need cigarettes & talk to anyone , SO BORED LUH SEY !
heh , baby's asleep ): imy !

okay then , nights !

takecare people .

2008-05-14T03:13:00.000+08:00

hey all my friends out there ! i've not been updating my blog for like dont know how long , well , all i can say is that i'm gna be active with the blogging world again . ;D
sorry for not updating .

2008-05-02T19:30:00.000+08:00

yea , sorry people for not updating ! kinda feeling lazy to do so . well , life's been stressful , dropped out of school . now currently waiting for ns . so , i dont wanna type more stuffs cause i'm lazy . heh .

today ; friday prayers ,
; home ,
; simpang ( soccer-ing ) ,
; kembangan with baby ,
; home .

baby , i miss you okaye. =D

2008-04-25T12:38:00.000+08:00

had great fun today , faiz , uan , shafiq , remember ; askje*** ! haha . should not publish it here cause it my offend some people. (:
slack till 6 plus , then went home , family probs , studies , just pulls me down . heh .
tried to make everything alright , but just cant . life sucks probably ... pfft .
no one to turn to . theres only one thing to do right now & that is ; JUST GIVE EVERYTHING UP !

takecare . & imy sayang.

2008-04-25T04:27:00.000+08:00

23 / 4 / 08 = School , Home , Met Baby . (:

i'll update later. sorry friends. =D

2008-04-23T11:34:00.000+08:00

9 More Days ; Baby , I Miss You Okay ; I Know You Love Me Only & No One Else , You're The One Who Showed Me That I'm Loved . Although Theres Ups & Downs In Our Rs , It Won't Ever Tear Us Apart , I'd Be By Your Side Forever & Always , I Love You Khairah Baby . (:

been looking forward to school nowadays cause my classmates just so fun . haha ! faz , amin , lol .
only my class advisor brings me down , he talks like some idiot , with no facial expression + the botak-ness , gosh , his head is so shiny when the sunray hits his forehead . HAHA ! today was tiring , woke up at 6 , went tanah merah to meet baby , &it was raining heavily , took cab , all my $5 gone ? heh . takpe , sayang nyer pasal . (: then went back home , changed , went back school , thats where the fun begin , first , faz was such a dumbdumb idiot , running around the class , when the teacher open the door , his face slammed against the door ! haha ! it was damn funny ! joker of the day. ahaks ! then , from 9 till 11 , slept in class cause didnt bring anything to class , starting frm tmrw , suffian gonna be a goodboy ! &baby , study hard for your exams aites . do well ! i want you too . just do your best , as you said ; have faith in yourself . (:

thats all folks ! tataaaaa ~

2008-04-21T01:34:00.000+08:00

its been days since i've blogged , first of all I Miss Baby .
180408 = Super-Duper-Tuper-Grupeerr-Juper-Luler Times Had . (:
190408 = Shagged + Fun . (:
sorry friends , i'll be updating soon .

2008-04-17T19:23:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating people . lazy to. (:

today,school getting more bored . new classmates , stupid teachers , stupid rules .
super lazy to go to school nowadays sia , so fcking waste of time . pfft .
slackslack , met baby , kembangan , then home .
thats it for today .

gosh , i miss you superduper. (:

bye temanskus . puss puss pusss ! lol .

2008-04-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

didn't sleep , wow ! my eye sumpah takboleh tahan , cause needed to teman sayang & had breakfast at MACDONALDS. (: then went back & slept , thanks for the morning laughters . lol ! woke up at 11 , wanted to go school but like wth uh , no mood ! repeated my 1st year ! fcukfcukfcukfcukfcukfcuk ! ): soo , SUFFIAN , study hard oke ? sleep back , woke up at 3 , went bedok meet ridwan , slackslackslack till 6 plus , went kembangan . &oh girl , i'm in love with you , if i just could hug you & kiss you whenever i can . ahaks !

&baby , sing along with me okay in the bus next time will you ? (:
&lets spent a night together to count the stars with me . (:
&my love for you will never end. ILMY !

byebye. nights .

2008-04-13T20:11:00.000+08:00

today . went to parkway , window shopping , soccer-ing at simpang , headed home , then daaa .
sorry , no mood today . bye & takecare kawans ..

2008-04-13T03:46:00.000+08:00

today ? (: extreme greatness ! hahas . went bugis, walkwalk , eat , then kembangan , sorry baby for not talking to you , was afraid that u might get angry . khehe . so takpe . then to tampines , bought new nike street soccer shoes that costs me $80 , went to pastamania for dinner , then to ezone ? haha ! wth . slackslackslack till 10 with vincent , jordan & samuel , then headed home .

pheeeeewwwiiit ~ imissbaby.

peace out. (:

2008-04-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

mood swings.

iny ! ):

2008-04-11T13:29:00.000+08:00

senang berbual uh , bibik , kau besar pey sundal ! aku cume amek $6 , beh kau gy bilang ayah & ibu i took $15 ? waaah , kau ingat ehk,kau nie stakat pembantu rumah ,bukan nye aper or some kind of queen , orang da kasi makan,tak aprreciate ! mak kau pey puki uh eh ! pasal kau luh aku gadoh ngan parents ! jahanam pey sundal , aku tak kisah uh,nie blog aku,aper aku nak cakap,aku pey pasal uh,tkde org bleh stop aku. &dad,kau pun takmo nak step faham luh masuk campur hal orang laen,aku bleh return to duit luh you bastard ! da cukup bagus aku tak tumbuk kau pey muke tadi ! kau patut bertetima kasih aku tak uat pape kat kau sial ! & mum,takmo mcm faham jugak luh, next time nak sepak,slap harder ,what ? are you weak or smth ? guess sick in the mind i think ! you think ayah slalu baik ajee ? u dont know what hes doing behind your back ?! &he frequently go out late after you're asleep ! pala buto pey haramjadah .

BABY,where are you when i need you the most ?! ):

2008-04-11T11:30:00.000+08:00

hello there . eh temans , besok better pay the nssl fee tau ?! i needa go to teck ghee or whatsoever the cc is. hahaks ! today was super-duper fun ! thanks BABY for the day , i didnt know what you ate or drank till you become like some (nak katerkan tak betol , tapi da memang ) haha. sorry oke ? but i love you anyway. (: carried this huge black thingy , &sorry if i ketoketok ur kepale with that thing . khehe . then,it rained , soaked , FUN ! oke. thats about today .

p.s - no one can take you away from me . (:

2008-04-10T04:41:00.000+08:00

4:40am ! cant even sleep , guess theres just lots of things that i cant figure out.
but , its life . so , BE STRONG . please take away my pain someone ? been suffering for like the past 5 hours ? aaaaahhh ! i need you right by my side baby. ):

2008-04-09T23:27:00.000+08:00

wow ! all messed up sia , first nssl thingy , tmrw i need to go sign up tau kawankawan ?! &please pay matimati by tomorrow,sorry faizal for paitau-ing kau,aku cakap nak meet kau,in the end tak.
sorry. oke,went bedok to meet faiz & wan,thought of buying rokok,but takde,so,bought marlboro SINGAPORE ! wth. -,-' then met her & meryl. slackslackslack till 6 plus,went kembangan. had a great time okay sayang ? (: then took cab from kembangan-home-bedok resevoir ! kocek lobang seyy ! cab fare reads 15.90 ! wah piang eyy ! mati sey aku,maen takraw,tau tak turun,like they played a lil while,then sume tired and they went home. fcuk sia ! bullshit ! &im sorry sayang for coming back home late. baby,sorry pasal i lectured u just now aites ? i love you & i taknak you continue to walk on the wrong path. please be strong tauu.

okay,thats for today !

&sayangku,i miss you !

2008-04-08T22:14:00.001+08:00

hoho ! nssl coming baybeh , so , be prepared. dont let the past repeat itself. kawankawan , please pay the money ? i need to go to teck ghee cc tau ! please be responsible ? i'm worried you're all too late. i really wanna join that competition . please ? okay , tday the weather like stupid , first , panas , drizzle , VERY HOT , the bleehhgghh , super heavy . wth ! i need new pair of slippers , anyone care to blanje me ? haha ! desperate seyy aku , haha . okeoke,then went to kembangan as usual .
HUGS & KISSES ! (:

weeee ~ loveyou baby !

2008-04-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

aiyoyo ! holidays are so super boring when theres nothing to do ! (: luckily next week sudaah start skola again ! yesss uh ! ~ 2nd year luh , macam orangorang katekan . da up sikit . hahaks . 14april2008 - 1st day of my year 2 in ite simei ?! wth. haha ! okeoke. temantemanku , biler nak go shisha-ing ? aku da tak sabar ! khehe.

baby,i miss you . ):

takecare people. NIGHTS .

2008-04-06T01:26:00.000+08:00

thanks for the day ;
thanks for all the laughter ;
thanks for the hugs & kisses ;
thanks for the cab fare ;
thanks for all your love ;
thanks jelutong cc for the "LAME" show ;
&finally , thanks for 0054 msg ? ;
iloveyou baby & i'll always will, no matter how much pain u caused me , i'll always forgive you.
i'll be there for you , i'll be there whenever you need me ;
once again,thanks for the night , &im sorry for what happen at home ? (:
ily,iny,imy. thats all i wanna say to you.
so,please dont ever leave me.

kkae. NIGHTS !

2008-04-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

yea,kini ku sedar saper diriku ini ? i'm nothing to you , its like i cant force you to love me? i cant stop you from doing anything ? its ur choice . but the thing is , i still love you . i miss you & i need you baby. but each day , it seems like we're drifting apart further . thats what i'm feeling now. all i need is you & no one else . tell me honestly , do you still even love me ? i'm lost. those thoughts have been in my mind since the day you left me . u would say ily , but now , u dont . okaylaa. just wanna end my post here. takecare & i'll always love you. (:

2008-04-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

i miss you sayang. please dont ever leave me , i'll never let you go ever . pleasepleaseplease understand what i'm going through all this while , its like i'm not asking you to be there for me when i'm in trouble , but i just need to know that u love me. (: when u left me stranded , i tried to be strong , but i just can't go on without you. ): seriously , i need you !

faiz ( asshole #1 ) , wan salim ( asshole #2 ) , ridwan ( asshole #4 ) , zepa belo ; thanks for being there for me when i'm in need , u guys totally cheered me up always . dont worry luh korang , one day , korang confirm happy nyer , after all , we have each other. KIMAK , da mcm gay sia aku ! lol.
so,ingat jek , FAIZ , kiter laki weak in the heart , tapy strong "somewhere" . lol .fahamfaham ajee oke ? (: biar kiter mangkuk , tapy kiter bersabar bnyk . HAHA ! wan belo , TAK LAMER EHK ?!?!?! . haha. insyallah oke ? harapharap kau & meryl last long. uan salim & "washingcar" , faiz & lyna , korang kene banyak bersabar aje luhh,nie sumah dugaan ! HARAM-JADAH ! haha. &make sure korng appreciate sapesape yang sayang korang oke ? daaaa. selamat malam !

bye. CHERISH THE ONE YOU LOVE.

2008-04-02T22:44:00.000+08:00

today was super fun ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM & GRANDPA !went to fish&co to celebrate mum's bdae , had some salmon teriyaki , then dad ordered seafood platter , the serving was like damn huge luhh seyy. haha . KEMbONG SEYY AFTER eating that thingy. lol.
then the crew all sang bdae song for mum , SUPER-PAISEY ! all was looking to our place where we were seated. ahaks !

2008-04-01T23:22:00.001+08:00

friends are such dick-heads. (:

imissyou ! argh.

2008-03-30T20:31:00.001+08:00

i guess life's unfair , &god TELL ME WHY ?!?! its so hard to live life w/o you now. its like fcuking unfair,love?life?studies? guess i'll be moving on with life. all i can do is just look on the bright side.
but,ITS NOT OVER ! (:

i miss you ;
your smile ;
your voice ;
your pinches ;
your kisses ;
your hug ;
your belo-ness ;
i'll be missing your morning calls ;
i'll always be there for you ;
i'll be waiting BABY ;
simply said , i miss everything about you .

bye.

2008-03-29T22:06:00.000+08:00

well,been cry'g . dk why. like i'm prepared for the worse . indeed,i have to be strong. sorry.
but i have to let it all out,since its my blog.

2008-03-29T19:58:00.001+08:00

oke people,today ? GREAT ! went to bishan to sign up for the anugerah band thingy & got to know that we'll perform tmrw. heh. stupid. from bishan , went back to simei to meet girlf . went banquet and ate carrot cake. ! zepa ; kau memang dolmat uh ! (: then from there , went jamming ,sweated like a pig because theres no fan around. -,-' STUPID ! then after jamming , went kembangan. thanks for those smiles & THOSE UNWANTED NOISES U MADE WITH MY DRUMSTICKS. badbad girl tauu. (: khehe. sayang kamuu !

tmrw's my band auditions. WISH ME LUCK.

MISSBABY. (:

2008-03-28T20:06:00.000+08:00

i miss sayangkuuu !!!!! stuupiddd people,just fcuk off ! (: tomorrow , ANUGERAH BAND AUDITIONS ! temanteman,tolong doakan suffian and band mates. harapharap dapat qualify oke ?
makaseehh ! khehe. i dont care,no matter what my mind tell me,i know that i do still love you like i use to , & nth could bring me down. LOVEYOU BABY.

daaaaa ~ nights.

2008-03-27T23:41:00.000+08:00

hah. life ? love ? wth luhh ! those thoughts had been in my mind for like days now !! idk how to spill it out but i just dont wanna end up feeling rejected or stupid. cause i'm giving everything to you . my time,my life, etc etc. seriously , please tell me the truth . i'm fcking confused with you . you left me no choice . ILOVEYOU oke. dont think negatively. cause this is how i'm feeling nowadays. when i'm with you , nothing else matters . but when ure not around me,i start to think differently like as if i'm losing you. haish. i dont know why cause its just so hard to explain. &i tried to get rid of this feeling,but the problem is that, I CANT !

okaye friends & temantemanku, today was quite okayokay day for me , went to meet khairah & then sent her home,then went back to grab my soccer stuffs . thought of playing at bedok view there but eventually , theres lots of MATREPS which i totally HATE. so,plan tak jadik.went to meet faiz and wan,slackslack till 10 plus,and cycle back home. PENAT OII! (:

okay daaa. byebye kawans ! (:

2008-03-26T22:42:00.000+08:00

never knew that life is so full of shit luh ! thoughts have been running through my mind. manymanymanymany thoughts luh . ugh. nbcb !

daaaa,take care people.

2008-03-25T20:57:00.000+08:00

sorry yeah people for not updating my blog so often nowadays. (: been busy with some stuffs. sorrysorry. tday was just a BORING day ! MOOD SWINGS & BOREDOM ! heh. orangorang , support me all the way cause i'm joining anugerah band which is on saturday ! weeee ~ kkae luh , i'm just tired too update anymore. PEACE. (:

I MISS MY BABY ! LIKE HELL ALOT ! ):

byebye.

2008-03-23T00:54:00.000+08:00

hmm,today was fun. sparks flew ,but then,evt'g returned to normal. the best part was that from meryls' took 168 to bedok and than ran all the way home since theres no bus 14 anymore. STUPID! sweat like pig sia.

lol.... kkae. byebye people. & thanks meryl for the pizzas ! (:

&baby,please takecare when i'm not arnd.

nights.

2008-03-22T17:28:00.000+08:00

wow,parents sucks maaaann !!! ~~ wth luhh,nagnagnagnagnag.

better off dead. nbcb uh ey MOM & DAD , go to hell after whatever uve done . i totally dont appreciate you guys at all. u think what,fun uh nagnag like fuckers like that ?!? stupid bitches & matreps,go mampos.

ps mom and dad,just fcuk off. FUCK LIFE ! SCREW THOSE FUCKERS.

sorry people.

bye suckers.