i'm super down. sad. i have no one to talk to anymore.
mum; i'm sorry. i know its useless. saying sorry won't solve anythin, i know.
but what did was just to prevent you from scolding Ashraf.
nevermind, i'll take the blame. but that doesn't mean you won't talk to me
when i wanna share my problems with you. i don't have have anyone to turn to
right now, NO ONE! i seriously can't depend on my friends.
i tried to talk to you, but you just walked away, tried to explain things, but
you don't wanna listen. & now, i'm left with nowhere to go. and Zepa, Faiz, Ridwan.
thanks for being there for me when i cried just now (:
cause i just need to shed that tears, i just need to. its hard to explain.
no one will ever understand. ibu, its okay if you don't wanna hear my problems,
its fine with me okay? cause i'll die one day anyway. thanks for everything.
now dad; you're a guy, i thought you'd understand how a guy feels when
they're in pain, but instead, you scolded me &
hit me with your so call expensive belt sesuka hati when i got home just now!.
you wanna bring back all my pasts? all my unwanted pasts?! FINE! i'll stay away from both of you! just don't mention that i didn't change, i tried my very best.
i did try. but seems like everything i do, will fail eventually.
so, no point trying anymore. & ibu; thanks eh SUMPAH-ING! i don't wanna mention it here, cause i know, it will happen! sooner or later.
whatever that comes out from a mothers' mouth, will sure happen.
so, hope you'll be smiling when that day comes! the worse part is,
i tried lying down on your shoulder, but you pushed my head away & i don't know till now, after you pushed my head away, you slapped me & start to nag again.
FFFFUUUUCCCCCKKK YYYYOOOOOUUUU!
WTF DID I DO?!! huh?! i needed that someone to talk to, cry on.
but you just can't be bothered! all my pasts, takkan luh ibu tak maafkan?!
i know i sinned alot, towards you, ayah, tok & nenek! but i did seek forgiveness
from you guys?! did i?! pft. its so unfair luh. i thought my problems were slowly fading away, by the way how thing s are going right now, its just adding up!
fuck this world luh okay. how bullshit can my problems be, HELLO!
i'm only 18! & yet, i think i'm facing more problems that 18 year olds should face!
i totally give up, there's nothing more i can do to make all of you appreciate me
for what i've done all this while. i seriously give up. i hope yawl will be happy
when i'm dead someday. okay? (:
WTF! can someone just be there for me? i need you, yes,YOU ; KHAIRAH!
& i know, you won't show up. cause you too, have your own problems.
i just don't wanna suffer anymore luh for god sake! i've gone through enough!
&to the anonymous whatever shit yang tagged, fuck you luh! tak puas hati, jumpe aku & talk to me face to face. its my blog, ade hal, cari aku uhh. !@%*
anyway, i just need someone to talk to right now, not been sleeping for two days straight cause i just can't sleep, FULL 48 hours, havent yet sleep for a minute!
and yet, i'm having more problems each & every day.
thats why, i'd rather die than suffer! khairah, now you get it?
thats what i've been trying to tell you, but i'm afraid.
I MISS YOU TO THE CORE & NO ONE WILL EVER HUG ME THE WAY LIKE YOU USE TO!
but you don't seem to even care. i'm sorry.
to mum & dad;
if one day i'm away, please, you know whats my wish.
i'm too stressed up. too down to think.
too tired to even walk. i just don't feel like doing anything.
cause all i need is YOUR smile, & you know who i'm referring to.
so yeah, i just can't continue anymore.
mum; i'm sorry. i know its useless. saying sorry won't solve anythin, i know.
but what did was just to prevent you from scolding Ashraf.
nevermind, i'll take the blame. but that doesn't mean you won't talk to me
when i wanna share my problems with you. i don't have have anyone to turn to
right now, NO ONE! i seriously can't depend on my friends.
i tried to talk to you, but you just walked away, tried to explain things, but
you don't wanna listen. & now, i'm left with nowhere to go. and Zepa, Faiz, Ridwan.
thanks for being there for me when i cried just now (:
cause i just need to shed that tears, i just need to. its hard to explain.
no one will ever understand. ibu, its okay if you don't wanna hear my problems,
its fine with me okay? cause i'll die one day anyway. thanks for everything.
now dad; you're a guy, i thought you'd understand how a guy feels when
they're in pain, but instead, you scolded me &
hit me with your so call expensive belt sesuka hati when i got home just now!.
you wanna bring back all my pasts? all my unwanted pasts?! FINE! i'll stay away from both of you! just don't mention that i didn't change, i tried my very best.
i did try. but seems like everything i do, will fail eventually.
so, no point trying anymore. & ibu; thanks eh SUMPAH-ING! i don't wanna mention it here, cause i know, it will happen! sooner or later.
whatever that comes out from a mothers' mouth, will sure happen.
so, hope you'll be smiling when that day comes! the worse part is,
i tried lying down on your shoulder, but you pushed my head away & i don't know till now, after you pushed my head away, you slapped me & start to nag again.
FFFFUUUUCCCCCKKK YYYYOOOOOUUUU!
WTF DID I DO?!! huh?! i needed that someone to talk to, cry on.
but you just can't be bothered! all my pasts, takkan luh ibu tak maafkan?!
i know i sinned alot, towards you, ayah, tok & nenek! but i did seek forgiveness
from you guys?! did i?! pft. its so unfair luh. i thought my problems were slowly fading away, by the way how thing s are going right now, its just adding up!
fuck this world luh okay. how bullshit can my problems be, HELLO!
i'm only 18! & yet, i think i'm facing more problems that 18 year olds should face!
i totally give up, there's nothing more i can do to make all of you appreciate me
for what i've done all this while. i seriously give up. i hope yawl will be happy
when i'm dead someday. okay? (:
WTF! can someone just be there for me? i need you, yes,YOU ; KHAIRAH!
& i know, you won't show up. cause you too, have your own problems.
i just don't wanna suffer anymore luh for god sake! i've gone through enough!
&to the anonymous whatever shit yang tagged, fuck you luh! tak puas hati, jumpe aku & talk to me face to face. its my blog, ade hal, cari aku uhh. !@%*
anyway, i just need someone to talk to right now, not been sleeping for two days straight cause i just can't sleep, FULL 48 hours, havent yet sleep for a minute!
and yet, i'm having more problems each & every day.
thats why, i'd rather die than suffer! khairah, now you get it?
thats what i've been trying to tell you, but i'm afraid.
I MISS YOU TO THE CORE & NO ONE WILL EVER HUG ME THE WAY LIKE YOU USE TO!
but you don't seem to even care. i'm sorry.
to mum & dad;
if one day i'm away, please, you know whats my wish.
i'm too stressed up. too down to think.
too tired to even walk. i just don't feel like doing anything.
cause all i need is YOUR smile, & you know who i'm referring to.
so yeah, i just can't continue anymore.
all my tears will never end;
cause i'll still love you khairah;
no matter what.
cause i'll still love you khairah;
no matter what.
