i've failed, i know that this is gonna happen.
how am i gonna live through everyday feeling stupid?
neglected, lied to, well, i just can't accept the fact.
i've been looking forward to your EOY cause i was hoping that we could
meet up like we use to. i was really looking forward.
but now, everything's changed. &theres no way i'm gonna get over you baby,
trust me. i'm crying my lungs out right now, in front of my sister.
i really don't know, are promises really meant to be broken?
i didn't know that, you told my friends evtg, i think i was a damn retard
to believe every single word that you told them that night.
i was looking forward to celebrate hari raya with you.
i did every single thing i could to make you stay.
tried callng you, but you wont pick up, tried msging you, but you wont reply.
i know, even though you couldnt reply my msges,
i msg you, just to tell you how much i love you.
wished you goodnight, wait. do you know how much it hurts inside when someone
promised you like aloot & gave you hope, in the end,
all that's left is just hatred?! whats you motive?
your promises = lies?
i tried pulling myself through every day w/o you around,
keep thinking to myself that you'll come back.
keep holding on a little bit of faith.
but i never ever thought that YOU, the one i loved, the one i sacrificed for,
i hold on to. could do this to me?
its just a disbelief. i cant believe whats happening.
seriously. what have i ever do wrong to be in this state?
i never lied to you, never played with your feelings,
oh i get it, maybe its because of me loving you too much.
i've never regret loving you. i swear i don't. cause i thought we
were just made for each other. in your letters,
you wrote soo much, your msges! you tell me..
think back all the promises you've made..
if you want to tell me that all those was just a lie,
then its fine with me. cause i'm never ever gonna believe you again.
i've sacrifice aloot just to make you happy,
try to cheer you up when you're sad.
talked to you when you're in need.
but, you just threw them away.
i know, i have nothing, NOTHING!
but whats the point of making those promises?
its useless, your words were soo sweet, that i believed every single promise.
i have never changed a thing, i kept on loving you and even treated you like my family.
i loved you more than anyone. i've never loved someone like this before.
its too painful to let go. if i could just meet you for the last time, i swear khairah.
its gonna be a memorable day. but i know, you won't wanna meet me.
i know. my friends told me to let go, but i just can't.
cause theres comething in me saying not to.
cause like i said, i thought for once we were meant to be.
& do you mean your sorry? cause if you do, things won't turn out to be this way.
we planned everything, but..
i can't go on, sorry love.
but i'm still holding on to you.
i can't let go. &i won't. if it takes me like a year to get you back, i'm willing to.
i don't care whats gonna ever happen. even if my life is at stake, i'm gonna do evtg i can to get
you to come back to me. cause in my heart. i still know that you're the one for me.
&i'm gonna love you till my last breath, i will.
don't you worry. my promises, just don't forget them yet.
cause i'm gonna fulfill evtg that i promised you.
i will, be there for you;
like i always do,
i will, love you like i use to;
i will, be with you till i die;
i will, wait for you.
well, below is what you wrote the day before my birthday on my friendster.
sorry.
( 05/07/08 )
Sayang;
tmr's your birthday and i cant meet you );
im really sorry okay .
reallyreally .
i hope you'll have fun celebrating ,
with idk who . your family and all the people tere ?
so yeah , i love you & i wont let go too okay (:
I PWOMISHHH .
please do takecare & remeber the above ,
dont you ever dare to forget about me .
cause if you do , ill make sure you wont (:
haha . get it ? get it ?
okay im lame .
shut up kyra .
AKU LOVE SUFFIAN HINGGA KE AKHIR MASA .
FAHAM ?!?!??!?! (:
whats that suppose to mean?
i just dont understand.
