i miss you;
yes i do.
takecare baby.
its okay if you won't answer my calls,
reply to my msgs,
cause i know, you're having your exams now;
do it well, and then you can have fun okay? (:
but i can say it here. i love you; always will.
its gonna last till the end.
&no matter how deep you're hurting me,
i'll still love you baby, trust me.
i'd still wait for your call each day & night;
even though i know, that you won't call me.
i'll wait; my baby.
&i'm just a phonecall away.

ps; i love you. (:

i've failed, i know that this is gonna happen.

how am i gonna live through everyday feeling stupid?

neglected, lied to, well, i just can't accept the fact.

i've been looking forward to your EOY cause i was hoping that we could

meet up like we use to. i was really looking forward.

but now, everything's changed. &theres no way i'm gonna get over you baby,

trust me. i'm crying my lungs out right now, in front of my sister.

i really don't know, are promises really meant to be broken?

i didn't know that, you told my friends evtg, i think i was a damn retard

to believe every single word that you told them that night.

i was looking forward to celebrate hari raya with you.

i did every single thing i could to make you stay.

tried callng you, but you wont pick up, tried msging you, but you wont reply.

i know, even though you couldnt reply my msges,

i msg you, just to tell you how much i love you.

wished you goodnight, wait. do you know how much it hurts inside when someone

promised you like aloot & gave you hope, in the end,

all that's left is just hatred?! whats you motive?

your promises = lies?

i tried pulling myself through every day w/o you around,

keep thinking to myself that you'll come back.

keep holding on a little bit of faith.

but i never ever thought that YOU, the one i loved, the one i sacrificed for,

i hold on to. could do this to me?

its just a disbelief. i cant believe whats happening.

seriously. what have i ever do wrong to be in this state?

i never lied to you, never played with your feelings,

oh i get it, maybe its because of me loving you too much.

i've never regret loving you. i swear i don't. cause i thought we

were just made for each other. in your letters,

you wrote soo much, your msges! you tell me..

think back all the promises you've made..

if you want to tell me that all those was just a lie,

then its fine with me. cause i'm never ever gonna believe you again.

i've sacrifice aloot just to make you happy,

try to cheer you up when you're sad.

talked to you when you're in need.

but, you just threw them away.

i know, i have nothing, NOTHING!

but whats the point of making those promises?

its useless, your words were soo sweet, that i believed every single promise.

i have never changed a thing, i kept on loving you and even treated you like my family.

i loved you more than anyone. i've never loved someone like this before.

its too painful to let go. if i could just meet you for the last time, i swear khairah.

its gonna be a memorable day. but i know, you won't wanna meet me.

i know. my friends told me to let go, but i just can't.

cause theres comething in me saying not to.

cause like i said, i thought for once we were meant to be.

& do you mean your sorry? cause if you do, things won't turn out to be this way.

we planned everything, but..

i can't go on, sorry love.

but i'm still holding on to you.

i can't let go. &i won't. if it takes me like a year to get you back, i'm willing to.

i don't care whats gonna ever happen. even if my life is at stake, i'm gonna do evtg i can to get

you to come back to me. cause in my heart. i still know that you're the one for me.

&i'm gonna love you till my last breath, i will.

don't you worry. my promises, just don't forget them yet.

cause i'm gonna fulfill evtg that i promised you.

i will, be there for you;

like i always do,

i will, love you like i use to;

i will, be with you till i die;

i will, wait for you.

well, below is what you wrote the day before my birthday on my friendster.

sorry.

( 05/07/08 )

Sayang;

tmr's your birthday and i cant meet you );
im really sorry okay .
reallyreally .
i hope you'll have fun celebrating ,
with idk who . your family and all the people tere ?
so yeah , i love you & i wont let go too okay (:
I PWOMISHHH .
please do takecare & remeber the above ,
dont you ever dare to forget about me .
cause if you do , ill make sure you wont (:
haha . get it ? get it ?
okay im lame .
shut up kyra .
AKU LOVE SUFFIAN HINGGA KE AKHIR MASA .
FAHAM ?!?!??!?! (:

whats that suppose to mean?

i just dont understand.

hello;
imysm! its been two days.
i know, you need space, well, i gave you all the space that you always wanted.
but please please remember that i still love you like i use to, no matter what.
i trust you okay? no one will ever replace me.
&that you won't be with another except me.
i believe every single word you told me. (:
no matter how much pain you caused me,
i'll always forgive you, i don't care how painful it is.
i just want you to be happy.
just like when you're with me.
we made promises, &i know you mean those.
really, just do your exams well, study hard. i want you to.
so that everything would return to normal.
don't be too stressed up, i'm not dead yet, i'm still here.
if you need me, i'm just a phonecall away baby.
if you need someone to turn to when things turn bad,
just call/msg me. i'll be there. like always.
i won't run away, neither will i mute.
you're my everyhing. i want this to last, but for now, just study hard okay? your
final year exams are just around the corner, i know.
try your best, have a little faith in yourself remember?
&if you miss me, and you dont wanna call me, just read my letters.
hug bearbear. hope it helps.
i promise you baby, i won't stop loving you till my last breath.
i promise. if you're reading this, don't cry, every word here,
came out sincerely from my heart. okay?
&its just for you! ONLY YOU baby.
baby, i love you. &i will never let you go.
&i know you'll come back.
faiz knows what i'm going through right now. (:
i'm just a phonecall away.
i do miss you, ALOOT!
takecare sygku.


ps; I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! (:

firstly, to nenek kesayanganku.
thanks for everything, you were the one,
took care of me since i was small, raised me up.
and now, you leave just like that.
i know, we as humans, don't live in this world forever right?
i promise nenek, i'll make you proud, thanks to you,
suffian sudah at least khatam AL-QURAN. (:
thank you nenek. all i can think of is that you're safe up there.
insyallah. may allah forgive all your sins.
lastly, nenek, kalau ade terkasar bahasa, tinggikan suara, harap nenek maafkan
suffian. i'm sorry nenek. i kissed your forehead. that was the last time i did.
watching you go, hurts me aloot!
goodbye nenek; Al-Fatihah.
ily.

&baby, i'm still loving you, like i use to.
losing my grandmother is harsh enough, &now, i can't bear to lose you.
only god knows what i'm going through right now.
i know, you'll come back. (:
so, i'll just have to wait. for you. i'll wait.
as promised. you can have you time & space you wanted.
but please, don't forget that you're still mine.
okay?

khairah; my love for you will never end. trust me.
i'll still be there when you're in need.
ps, ILOVEYOU! (:

PRISON BREAK SEASON 4 OUT! haha. (:

Click on the links to watch;

Episode 1 - SCYLLA ; http://tv-video.net/swf/prison/prison401.swf

Episode 2 - BREAKING AND ENTERING ; http://tv-video.net/swf/prison/prison402.swf

Episode 3 - SHUT DOWN ; http://tv-video.net/swf/prison/prison403.swf

More Of Prison Break Coming Up.

Takecare. (:

I'm bored. so, found this. heh.


done.
omg, i'm bored to death.



baby, i'm still loving you; imysm!

I know, you'll come back to me,
i'll wait for you baby,
as long as you want me to,
i'll wait. till you dont want me to.
i'll give you all the time and space that you need baby.
please tell me if you think that its really over aites.
i'll respect ur decision. &dont worry, i won't run away.
cause my love for you will never end.
i love you so much baby!
takecare when i'm not around.
for the past 7months, i never ever regret being with you.
seriously, the times we had, now will be just memories.
if i could hug you now, i'll cry my lungs out. deep inside, i'm hurt.
really hurt. i miss you so much now.
i know you still love me like you use to, but you're trying to be strong.
i know baby, you can't hide. i treated you like my own blood.
but now, i'm in a huge loss. but still, i'll be there when you neeed someone to talk to.
if you're sad, angry, pissed, i'm gonna be there when you need someone.
cause like i told you before, i won't ever run away.
baby, i won't stop loving you till its over. i wont say goodbye till you want me to.
we promised to be together till the end. well, promises are not always kept.
i loved you more than anyone in my family.
anyone that's ever been with me.
cause i knew you're the one. hope i'm not mistaken.
baby, if you're reading this. please go read all ur past posts. read it carefully.
i want you to think back what we've done for the past 7months?
&maybe you'll understand what i'm going through now.
sorry i didnt gave you the space.
now, i'm willing to. i'll pray for your return baby.
please, stop the suffering, come back to me and get back on track sayangku.
takecare always aites. i love you baby.
mwaaah!


ps: i'm just a phonecall away. (: